December 30, 2008 - Tuesday
to stay postive..to stay positive ..to stay positve
must stay positive
must stay positive
must stay positive
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it is the way it is...
it is the way it is...........
a friend a foe a lover a con
screams out to me
says he is dieing
i leave the man, the job
the potential
i was so happy moving on
so it seemed
then the texts came in
the phone calls
i forgot i forgot
i am forgiving i believe
everyone should have
a chances..
the chance was to
get hurt, abused, used
and left to rot on the street
all this master plan to
take take take
and leave me to die..
two days before
x mas after all the guests
had gone..he starts
screaming shouting
violent..i drive him to
the hospital..he drives me
dumps me..says he's going
to call on me..
i have no more money..
such abuse..
why?
he says my girlfriends
coming you have to get
out of town..iam going
to sell u r guitar and amp
for the money u owe me..
sick to my stomach
terrifyed
horrified
i feel sick to my stomach
about the whole deal..
its gross ..
to make matters worse
this guy who i thaught
was a stand up guy said
you could help me, no
promises..for booking
i respected that guy so
much ..just adored his
spirit about music..
i found out he was talking
bad about me,,and lied
about booking shows for
me..gross gross gross....
than my ex..everything
got on his phone..
now i have folks
hateing on me,,i ust
moved here..dispite
all youck youck youck..
great things have happened..
all this shit
for some fresh air..
thank goodness xoxoxxo
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December 25, 2008 - Thursday
ghost town christmas..
Category: Music
this is a ghost town x-mas
all my fair weather friends
have gone
i ran out of money
and that guy ran me
out of town
the kindness of strangers
is something i cant bare
the streets are all empty
not a single person
is walking nor do i share
what i hear near is
children laughing
and the drunken choirs
are fighting..
this is my ghost town x-mas
all the ones i love our gone..
little baby jesus is painted
on this torn thrown out
x mas card..
i can hardly get out
of bed on this day
it reminds me
of that terrible day
911 was called too late
and my family was slain..
why i tell you about it now..
this i can never figure it out..
the x-mas headline news
so long ago..
it was in all the papers
all those friendly people
are so far away all i will
remember is there face
is shock and terror..
I was the only witness
to small to comprehend
too young to discribe
still a blacked out memory
alcohol cant bare..
...
my mother had been
putting the turkey on
the table and my father
had been drinking
holiday sherri
just me singing carols
with my new favorite doll
my dog was chaseing
his tail..the fireplace
was roaring it was
the most wonderful tale,
the air had been cold
with frost never had
there been a day so
cold for 80 yrs so they
said..
the presents had never been
opened and they never will..
all those close could not see
me for all those days to come
and they never will
ghost town x-mas for ever shall i bare..
ghost town christmas
where the lights have been
burnt out for years.
ghost town christmas
where the cheer has turned
to worn out tears
ghost town x-mas
is where i was left
to walk on the streets
looking else where..
jingle bells can tell you
what it used to be like.
no i can tell you a single
bell hollering in the night.
st nick was a saint but
that night he died..
ghost town x-mas
forever shall i write..
ghost town x-mas
was captured that day
ghost town x-mas
is where i shall roam
where baby jesus is
on a torn thrown out x-mas card..
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December 17, 2008 - Wednesday
help...i got a bug that is eraseing all my friends..boo hoo
help i got a bug that is eraseing
all my friends on my space...
boo hooo
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